Fear

What are you afraid of???

For me, my biggest fear is abandonment. Losing everything and everyone I have ever loved or cared about. Or even losing one person. This isn't due to death or a natural cause, but litterally having someone realize that they no longer want you or no longer want to be a part of your life so they leave you. They abandon you, like a little lost puppy in a box on the side of the road. Just left to your own devices when you needed them the most. That is my biggest fear. But this fear is irrational, and for lack of a better adjective stupid. Because I can never be truly abandoned, not when I have Christ. 

“Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” ~Mark 4:40  

So why am I so afraid of abandonment? Why is it that this is what plauges my nightmares? Not only do I have Christ who will never forsake me, but I also have amazing parents who love me unconditionally and this awesome (and sometimes annoying :p) sister, that I know will always be there. Yet, I still have this destructive fear? A fear that I am learning to control and tame and overcome because of the amazing love that Christ has for me, but also stemming from that love, the blessing he has given me in my family. 

But let me ask?? What are you afraid of? And is this something that can be overcome? Something that can be solved? The context of the aformentioned verse is that of Jesus speaking to his disciples after he has calmed a storm on the ocean. They are in the middle of a storm and about to be overtaken, and when they have finally tried everything on there own, they finally turn to Jesus and ask him to solve the problem. What kind of problems do you have in your life today, that you have tried to solve on your own 100's of times without success? A problem that, if you would just turn to God, he could take it and "calm the storm." If you have faith that he can overcome your personal storms for you, then why have fear? Why have fear of abandoment or whatever it is that you may fear. Because with Christ, you should not be overcome and overwhelmed by your fear, but be content that he has your fears under control and will not let them overcome or overwhelm you.  

*side note (Now I have never been in a storm on the ocean, but from the movies i've seen they look terrifying. They are huge, strong, and strangley beautiful. They appear to be untamable and uncontrolled. If God can control THAT with nothing but his words, what do you think he can do to the small comparably insignifgant things that occur in your life? If he can control the oceans and storms, don't you think he can control something like abandonment? And keep a fear like that from being something that you can't bear?)